A Touch of God.
So I am finally back with another touch of God post. I know it’s been a long time and quite frankly I’m not apologetic for it. I believe all the experiences I gain from my journey with God take time, growth and experience takes place overtime. Therefore, my touch of God posts will be posted overtime, after I’ve gone through something or feel inspired. Writing about God is a lot, it’s special and it’s somewhat sacred. I write not with the intention to sound like a professional – I don’t even know if my grammar and spelling is correct half the time… but I still just hope that what I write will touch someone out there. Basically what I’m saying is these posts won’t be everyday, or every week posts. They will be “once in while – reflection” posts, that are relevant and important to me. With that being said… here’s the first post of 2017.
I’ve learnt a lot in the space of no time. I’ve entered a new door. Like everyone who makes school, health and life goals – I too make goals about God. I make goals, to grow spiritually, to become spiritually wise, to be knowledgeable about the word and God. I make those goals because I want to grow, and I want to be able to feed on the word and live by it. However, before doing this I had to comfortable with my faith and not be ashamed of my God.
I suppose I was not necessarily ashamed of God, and being a young woman in Christ, but I had moment where I was just shy about it. I was shy because praising God and being expressive about him can bring much attention, questions and challenges. All the things I didn’t want to deal with. I didn’t want anyone to question my faith and I didn’t want to explain myself to anyone; I didn’t want people to look at me different or begin to expect certain things or a certain type of person when they looked at me; and I didn’t want anyone to feel that they could challenge me by testing me or reprimanding me just for their own amusement. In other words, I didn’t want to feel pressured, disrespected or made fun of. Therefore, I took time to work on accepting that those are some of the very minor and easy, but petty things I would have to deal with – because on a journey with God one faces challenges bigger than they think they can handle. I would have to deal with peoples perception of how an individual who praises God, goes to church, and talks about the word when they’re out at a lunch – is like. And because I was determined to get close to my Lord I dealt with it.
I noticed that people seem to enjoy asking what makes God so great, worth worshipping or righteous? Some even ask how I know God is real, and if I realize that churches and Pastor’s are just after our money – and don’t even get me started on the Prophets, every opinion that has been shared with me about them is even worse. When responding to these questions and opinions I would simply give a few words, and if the person was rude I’d hit them with a wise bible verse they’d never heard (when I was able to think of one.) Otherwise to others I’d tell them to turn to God and all their questions would be answered. It did not take very long to realize that all this, I wanted to avoid I began enjoying because in some way I was standing up for my God. Of course the Lord is mighty and doesn’t need me defending or standing up for him, however, in those times, I was standing up for him in a way that showed the other person that I take pride in my faith, and take pride in my God. I reflected an attitude that confirmed that this is not temporary, it is forever. This is something I am clinging on to with my hands and feet, something I cannot possibly imagine parting from. Once I realized what I was reflecting, I began exercising it and becoming more comfortable with it. I think what made this easier is that;
1. I was praying about it
2. I was using my own experiences and testimonies to express it.
3. I was determined.
I was putting more effort into expressing my love for God than I put into any of my school work in high school. Probably because a life with Christ is something I could never let go, whereas school was something I wished I could’ve just let go. I really didn’t like school. But education is important kids. Furthermore, I found comfort in the Lord which allowed me to find comfort in openly expressing my love for him.
So this 2017, if you have been seeking God or have started a relationship with him that you keep hidden and are shy about – let that go. You’re not doing it for people, you’re doing it for yourself, your own spiritual and physical wellbeing, and you’re doing it for God. Man can never be the source of your peace or the source to your happiness, man can add to it however, man is not the source (don’t get it twisted.) “Whatever happens my dear brothers and sisters, rejoice in the Lord. I never get tired of telling you these things, and do it to safeguard your faith.” Phil 3:1 NLT Embrace your relationship with God, be proud and stand up for your God because there is nothing to be ashamed of. Praising God should not be a burden or something you want to keep hidden, it should be the best part of your day, your week, even this current hour.
“Everyone who acknowledges me publicly here on earth, I will also acknowledge before my father in heaven.” Matt 10:32 NLT
2016 was a good year. There was a lot of growth and I’m still taking time to reflect on it. I hope you all have a blessed year. God bless you all!